{"id":2644,"date":"2024-07-27T07:00:00","date_gmt":"2024-07-27T04:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/oldoriginal.zurnalaskelione.lt\/?p=2644"},"modified":"2024-09-20T14:24:23","modified_gmt":"2024-09-20T11:24:23","slug":"antanas-simkus-namai","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/oldoriginal.zurnalaskelione.lt\/index.php\/2024\/07\/27\/antanas-simkus-namai\/","title":{"rendered":"Antanas \u0160imkus. Namai"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u201eKelion\u0117\u201c 2023 m. Nr. III (27)<\/a><\/p>

I\u0161 prad\u017ei\u0173 niekas ne\u017ead\u0117jo jokio jud\u0117jimo. Saul\u0119 keit\u0117 debesys, liet\u0173 sniegas, dien\u0105 naktis, m\u0117nesius metai \u2013 viskas sukosi daugma\u017e \u012fprastu ratu, tad taip ir turi b\u016bti, atrod\u0117 mums. Bet taip tik reg\u0117josi.<\/p>

Vien\u0105 ryt\u0105 namai, kuriuose gyvenome, ne\u012fsp\u0117j\u0119 truktel\u0117jo i\u0161 vietos ir pajud\u0117jo. Niekas ne\u012fsivaizdavome, kur ir kod\u0117l. Tiesiog taip nutinka. \u0160irdys jau nebe \u0117jo, o b\u0117go, gird\u0117jome jas kalant ir band\u0117me suprasti, kas vyksta su mumis ir u\u017e m\u016bs\u0173.<\/p>

Vakarop namai pavargo, klestel\u0117jo pakaln\u0117je \u0161alia ka\u017ekokio mi\u0161ko, kartu su jais steb\u0117jome besileid\u017eian\u010di\u0105 saul\u0119 ir po truput\u012f rimome. U\u017e med\u017ei\u0173 sienos gird\u0117josi tolimas traukinio \u016bksmas ir nematom\u0173 Gr\u012f\u017eulo Rat\u0173 dundesys. Keista, kad tolumoje ramina tie garsai, kurie i\u0161 arti turb\u016bt susprogdint\u0173.<\/p>

Visi ils\u0117jom\u0117s. Miegojo nuo keliavimo apsilamd\u0119, i\u0161bir\u0119 daiktai, sn\u016bduriavo u\u017euolaidos ir u\u017era\u0161ai, sapnavau tave, o tu sapnavai pasaul\u012f, o pasaulis sapnavo namus, o k\u0105 sapnuoja namai, niekada nesupaisysi\u2026 Ir v\u0117l saul\u0119 keit\u0117 debesys, dienas naktys, Gr\u012f\u017eulo Ratai \u010dia pasirodydavo, \u010dia dingdavo \u2013 tolimieji traukiniai u\u017e mi\u0161ko i\u0161mok\u0117 skai\u010diuoti laik\u0105, dovanojo saul\u0117lyd\u017eio lop\u0161ines, i\u0161mok\u0117 ra\u0161yti meil\u0117s ir nemeil\u0117s lai\u0161kus artimiems ir svetimiems, \u2013 ir visa tai, kol ils\u0117jom\u0117s, nors ir man\u0117me, kad tai \u2013 veikla, darbas, gyvenimas\u2026<\/p>

Netgi daiktai pama\u017e\u0117le atsistojo \u012f vietas, kasdienyb\u0117 \u012fgijo \u012fprasto rato form\u0105, a\u0161 jau dr\u012fsdavau tau i\u0161tarti, kad po ka\u017ekiek laiko m\u016bs\u0173 sodinti klevai mes \u0161e\u0161\u0117l\u012f ant stogo ir tada taip nebeprikaitins vidurvasariai, o ruden\u012f gal\u0117sime sustumti margaspalves kalveles i\u0161 lap\u0173 ir d\u016bkti taip, kaip \u0161\u0117lstama tik i\u0161 gerumo, i\u0161 to svaigulio, kad esi.<\/p>

Ta\u010diau ry\u017etas \u012fleisti \u0161aknis, matyt, buvo per menkas. Ka\u017ekuri\u0105 nakt\u012f pajutome jau pa\u017e\u012fstam\u0105 truktel\u0117jim\u0105 \u2013 tamsoje mus apsupo traukini\u0173 garsas ir i\u0161sive\u017e\u0117 kartu su namais. Mi\u0161kas prasiskyr\u0117 ir linguodamas mus i\u0161lyd\u0117jo. Taip, net ir med\u017eiai kartais i\u0161duoda, nors jie moka puiki\u0173 lop\u0161ini\u0173. \u017dinoma, mes nemat\u0117me, k\u0105 jie sak\u0117, mes tik \u012fsivaizdavome, nes netur\u0117jome nieko, artimesnio u\u017e med\u017eius.<\/p>

\u0160i kelion\u0117 netruko ilgai. Tiek, kiek trunka atleisti u\u017e i\u0161davyst\u0119. Kai kurie tuo traukiniu keliauja iki \u0161iol, nes negali dovanoti. O mums pasisek\u0117 \u2013 v\u0117l pasijutome namuose. Nebebuvo med\u017ei\u0173, bet buvo kiemas kietu betoniniu pavir\u0161iumi. Po lietaus jame atsispind\u0117davo kietas pavir\u0161ius ka\u017ekur vir\u0161 m\u016bs\u0173. Nors ir mes gyvenome auk\u0161tai, m\u016bs\u0173 namai pakilo, persitvark\u0117 \u2013 \u010dia suma\u017e\u0117jo, ten paaugo.<\/p>

Dabar \u017ei\u016br\u0117jome pro daugiaauk\u0161\u010dio langus, v\u0117l mat\u0117me saul\u0119, ir jau nebe\u017einojome, k\u0105 sakyti nei jai, nei sau. Tod\u0117l tiesiog ne\u0161iojome daiktus i\u0161 kambario \u012f kambar\u012f, tamp\u0117me vienas kito na\u0161tas, bandydami nutyl\u0117ti tai, kas neapsakoma. Band\u0117me apra\u0161yti. Apgalvoti. Ap\u2026 Ne visada gali nuryti apmaud\u0105. Kartais jo tiesiog per daug. Vienam k\u016bnui, dviem, keletui. Pro langus nebetilpo Gr\u012f\u017eulo Rat\u0173 vaizdas, niekas nebetilpo. Gal d\u0117l to jie nebesirod\u0117 ir neatsispind\u0117davo jokiuose kietuose pavir\u0161iuose.<\/p>

\u017di\u016br\u0117damas \u012f tavo akis, a\u0161 nebesuprasdavau, k\u0105 regiu. Manau, kad tu manosiose irgi. Namai i\u0161sidalino. Netgi ne kart\u0105. I\u0161siskai\u010diavo knygos, i\u0161sivaik\u0161\u010diojo k\u0117d\u0117s, vijoklis i\u0161sikeit\u0117 \u012f spygliuot\u0105 viel\u0105, durys trinks\u0117damos pa\u017eadindavo visas namuose esan\u010dias \u0161irdis ir jos, \u012fkalintos nakties vienut\u0117se, bevilti\u0161kai dau\u017eydavosi iki ryto, primindamos ritm\u0105 traukinio, lekian\u010dio per bekra\u0161t\u0119 tams\u0105.<\/p>

Akla melodija po truput\u012f \u012fgyja kont\u016brus \u2013 l\u0117tai, tarsi juodu tu\u0161u ant balto lapo bevardis dailininkas atvert\u0173 darsyk i\u0161nyrant\u012f pasaul\u012f. U\u017e lango, u\u017e stiklo. Praeis daug met\u0173, kol v\u0117l reg\u0117si spalvas. O gal net ne tas tikr\u0105sias, o tas, kurias atsimeni i\u0161 skirting\u0173 kelioni\u0173 su namais ir namuose. I\u0161 skirting\u0173 nam\u0173. Veid\u0173. Siel\u0173. Akla melodija anks\u010diau ar v\u0117liau padeda prareg\u0117ti. Negali nieko pakeisti, gr\u0105\u017einti ar gra\u017einti. Ir netgi nenori. Bet d\u017eiaugiesi, kad v\u0117l matai. Tegu ir u\u017e stiklo. Pro lang\u0105.<\/p>

Saul\u0119 kei\u010dia debesys, liet\u0173 sniegas, dienas naktys, m\u0117nesius metai\u2026<\/p>

—<\/p>

\u2026vien\u0105 kart\u0105 susapnavau pasaul\u012f ir a\u0161. V\u0117liau susapnavau namus. Jie buvo Gr\u012f\u017eulo Rat\u0173 formos. O \u0161alia j\u0173 tek\u0117jo up\u0117. \u017dinojau, kad jos dugne gausyb\u0117 paskendusi\u0173 ir paskandint\u0173 sauli\u0173, debes\u0173, m\u0117nuli\u0173, nuplukdyt\u0173 laiveli\u0173, lai\u0161k\u0173, likim\u0173\u2026 Kalb\u0117jausi su jais. Ir jie sapnavo mane, mus. Taip, jie dar pamena ir tave, ir visus, kurie buvo su mumis, up\u0117 visk\u0105 atmena, \u2013 visus namus, su mi\u0161kais, traukiniais. Ji visk\u0105 nuplauna, nusine\u0161a. Kalb\u0117jausi su ja.<\/p>

V\u0117liau visi sugr\u012f\u0161 i\u0161 naujo. \u012esitaisys ant kranto. Klausysis dundesio, \u0161nab\u017edesio. Gird\u0117s, kaip auga mi\u0161kas, kaip ramiai mokosi vaik\u0161\u010dioti \u0161irdis.<\/p>

—<\/p>

\u2026kai atsibudau, i\u0161\u0117jau pro duris \u2013 up\u0117s \u0161alia nebebuvo. Gr\u012f\u017eau \u012f namus. I\u0161siviriau arbatos ir nusprend\u017eiau u\u017era\u0161yti, k\u0105 atsimenu.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u201eKelion\u0117\u201c 2023 m. Nr. III (27) I\u0161 prad\u017ei\u0173 niekas ne\u017ead\u0117jo jokio jud\u0117jimo. Saul\u0119 keit\u0117 debesys, liet\u0173 sniegas, dien\u0105 naktis, m\u0117nesius metai \u2013 viskas sukosi daugma\u017e \u012fprastu ratu, tad taip ir turi b\u016bti, atrod\u0117 mums. Bet taip tik reg\u0117josi. Vien\u0105 ryt\u0105 namai, kuriuose gyvenome, ne\u012fsp\u0117j\u0119 truktel\u0117jo i\u0161 vietos ir pajud\u0117jo. Niekas ne\u012fsivaizdavome, kur ir kod\u0117l. Tiesiog taip … <\/p>\n

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